Promise is just a promise

Again... For the 3rd time Ive been dumped & lied. Promise is just a promise which is meant to be broken. If you knw tht you cannot do as wht you say just say the truth. Don't make such sweet promises just to make me smile & believe you. I hv compromise enough in this so called relationship. I think I hv given u sooo many chance but still Ive been treated by you like Im not worth it!

At last it shattered...

At this very moment tht feelings come again. Please take it away from me, I do not want to be suffering & suffocated in this situation. Oh God! I miss him... Why did he do this to me. I want to get rid of him.. Please please go away... It hurts.. Deep inside. I've been holding it inside & at last it shattered. I cannot hold it any longer... Ya Allah please grant me peace I cannot be in this situation any longer. I need You to guide me to the right path.

Nat King Cole - I love you for sentimental reasons

I love you for sentimental reasons
I hope you do believe me
I'll give you my heart
I love you and you alone were meant for me
Please give your loving heart to me
And say we'll never part
I think of you every morning
Dream of you every night
Darling, I'm never lonely
Whenever you are in sight
I love you for sentimental reasons
I hope you do believe me
I've given you my heart
I love you for sentimental reasons
I hope you do believe me
I've given you my heart

Rolling In The Deep - Adele

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fevered pitch and it's bringing me out the dark.
Finally, I can see you crystal clear,
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare,
See how I'll leave with every piece of you,
Don't underestimate the things that I will do.

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark.

The scars of your love remind me of us,
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all.
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
I can't help feeling,

We could have had it all,
(Your gonna wish you, never had met me)
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Baby, I have no story to be told,
But I've heard one on you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair,
Making a home down there as mine sure won't be shared,

The scars of your love remind me of us,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
I can't help feeling,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Could have had it all,
Rolling in the deep,
You had my heart inside of your hands,
But you played it with a beating.

Throw your soul through every open door,
Count your blessings to find what you look for.
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold,
You'll pay me back in kind and reap just what you've sown.

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all.
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
It all, it all, it all.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hands,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me

But you played it,
You played it,
You played it,
You played it to the beat.

Hati tak tenteram....dh dua tiga hari mcm ni...tak tau kenapa...tak dpt nk cari puncanye dimana...resah aje...buat kerja pun tak senang...mcm sesuatu akan berlaku tapi tak tau ape...kalau tau senang la pulak kan....tak de la hati ni gundah gulana tak tentu pasal...Ingatkan seseorg???? hmmm....tak mungkin...tiada siapa untuk diingati kecuali keluarga tercinta. Ya Allah, aku mohon padaMu tenangkanlah hati ku Ya Allah. Selamatkan lah keluarga ku serta sahabat tercinta..Lindungilah mereka dari bahaya & malapetaka serta perbuatan dengki khianat manusia. Hanya kepadaMu aku bermohon dan berserah. Amin.....

Need You Now - Lady Antebellum

Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone cause, I can’t fight it any more
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey, can’t stop looking at the door
Wishing you’d come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It’s a quarter after one, I’m a little drunk
And I need you now
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now

Yes I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all
It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn’t call but I’m a little drunk and I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now
I just need you now
Oh baby I need you now

Promises meant to be broken.....

Akhirnya, I know where I belong....All those promises was a lie....It was never meant to be true & never with the intention to do so...I'm broken hearten once again... Words was just mere words...words was only words with no meaning...

If promises meant to be broken,Why do people make promise when they already knew the answer....Every promises made is a hope given to the other party. Just look at kids, when we promise them to buy them ice -cream we can see the lit of hope on their faces, when we do not keep to our promises, they cry... why??? because the hope to have an ice cream vanished just in second. The same goes with adult, as a person promise you something, hope appears in you but once the promises is not keep, every single thing just drop down as the glass shattered....

If promises is meant to be broken, do not make promise when you know you cannot fulfill because you have given hope to that person and you cannot fulfill it...Better say it at the first place rather than you make the person hope & waiting for you for nothing....

Great Expectations

Will I be like Miss Havisham in Great Expectations???...Hmmm...I do wonder ..It's been in my mind for few days already....

I just celebrated my birthday last March...Perfect age for a lady, that's what my aunt said. Is it?!...Maybe....Maybe it's true to those married lady with beautiful kids. Picture Perfect!...

Do we really have those 'Picture Perfect' in reality?....Perhaps to those lucky people they do have...I do wonder when will I get my 'Picture Perfect'..but then again thinking of what is happening surrounding me, it is better to leave it to HIM coz HE knows better. My pray & hope that there'll be the light at the end of my tunnel...

HATI YANG KAU SAKITI- ROSSA


Jangan pernah katakan bahwa cintamu hanyalah untukku
Karena kini kau telah membaginya
Maafkan jika memang kini harus kutinggalkan dirimu
Karena hatiku slalu kau lukai
Tak ada lagi yang bisa ku lakukan tanpamu
Ku hanya bisa mengatakan apa yg kurasa

Ku menangis… membayangkan
Betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku
Kau duakan cinta ini
Kau pergi bersamanya

Ku menangis… melepaskan
Kepergian dirimu dari sisi hidupku
Harus slalu kau tahu
Akulah hati yg telah disakiti

Maafkan jika memang kini harus kutinggalkan dirimu
Karena hatiku slalu kau lukai
Tak ada lagi yang bisa ku lakukan tanpamu
Ku hanya bisa mengatakan apa yg kurasa

Ku menangis… membayangkan
Betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku
Kau duakan cinta ini
Kau pergi bersamanya

Ku menangis… melepaskan
Kepergian dirimu dari sisi hidupku
Harus slalu kau tahu
Akulah hati yg telah kau sakiti

Ku menangis…
Harus slalu kau tahu
Akulah hati yang telah….
Kau sakiti…

SuDdEnLy I See

Her face is a map of the world
Is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

I feel like walking the world
Like walking the world
You can hear she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on her word

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me


By: KT Tunstall

Rindu...

Emmmm....satu perkataan yg nampak pendek & simple tapi mempunyai makna yg mendalam...Rindu..., satu perasaan yg sukar utk ditafsirkan. Sakitnya bila merindu, tapi seronok bila dirindu...*sigh*...

Kenapa perlu ada perasaan rindu? Adakah ianya wujud bila munculnya perasaan sayang dlm diri? Sakit...;sakit bila merindu....Ya Allah, tolong lah hapuskan perasaan ini dlm diriku....Ya Tuhan aku sakit bila perasaan ini muncul dlm hidupku....Aku tak sanggup lagi utk merasa kecewa....Lebih baik perasaan rindu ini tidak hadir dlm diriku supaya kecewa tidak wujud dlm kamus hidupku....

Pada saat & ketika ini perasaan RINDU terlalu menebal dlm diri. Aku cuba hapuskan ia tapi aku tak mampu melawan fitrah diriku...Ya Allah, sakitnya aku merindui seseorang...kenapa ini harus terjadi kepada diriku? Ya Tuhan, aku tak mampu melawan perasaan ini dlm diriku...& aku tak mampu melawan & menidak apa yg telah dtakdirkanMu utk ku. Aku mohon kekuatan dariMu Ya Tuhanku....Sesungguhnya Ya Allah aku rindukan dia...Aku mohon Kau sampaikanlah perasaan rinduku padanya...

2010- Hopefully will be a promising year for me....

2009 telah melabuhkan tirainya...dan 2010 menjelma....Setahun telah berlalu, tetapi tiada perubahan yg berlaku dlm hidupku....Hanya berjaya merangkul segulung lagi Ijazah...selain drpd itu, kehidupanku masih lg spt biasa....Harapanku, 2010 bakal menjanjikan sesuatu yang terbaik untuk diriku dan juga keluarga. Doa & harapan agar hidup diberkatiNya dalam menjalani ibadah ku sebagai manusia dan hambaNya yg hina.

2009 memberi byk pengajaran kepadaku dan menjadikan aku lebih matang dlm menjalani kehidupan seharian sebagai hambaNya. Tiada yg diharapkan bg tahun 2010 hanya lah kehidupan yg lebih baik dari kehidupan yg sbelum ini. Mendapat berkahNya & diberkati hidupku sehingga ke akhir hayatku. Menanti cinta sejati yg sering kutunggu dr setahun ke setahun. Tetapi kusedar ianya sukar utk diperolehi kecuali cinta sejati kepadaNya....Ya Allah ampunkan aku atas segala kesalahanku terhadapMu. Betapa aku lalai dlm menjalankan tugas & t/jawabku sebagai hambaMu. Ampunkan aku Ya Tuhanku dan berikanlah pengajaran dan petunjuk kepadaku Ya Tuhanku Ya RAbbi Alamin...Hanya kepadaMu aku bermohon dan meminta. Sesungguhnya Engkau mengetahui segala-galanya mengenai diriku, mana yg baik & mana yg buruk utk diriku. Hanya padaMu aku berserah...Amin....

Dilema Cinta - Ungu

Seberapa salahkah diriku
Hingga kau sakiti aku begitu menusukku
Inikah caramu membalas
Aku yang selalu ada saat kau terluka

Seberapa hinanya diriku
Hingga kau ludahi semua yang ku beri untukmu
Tak ada satu pun perasaan yang mampu membuatku begitu terluka
Namun ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu

Terlambat bagiku pergi darimu
Bagiku terlalu indah perasaan itu
Tak mudah untukku menjauh darimu
Telah ku coba segala cara

‘Tuk bahagiakan kamu
Merebut hatimu
Namun tak semudah yang ku bayangkan
Bila kau tak inginkan ku ’tuk di sisimu

Tak pernah kurasakan sebelumnya
Menginginkan dirinya hingga ku tak kuasa
Meyakini hatiku bahwa ku mampu berlalu
Namun ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu

Terlambat bagiku pergi darimu
Bagiku terlalu indah perasaan itu
Tak mudah untukku menjauh darimu

Namun ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu
Terlambat bagiku pergi darimu
Bagiku terlalu indah perasaan itu
Tak mudah untukku menjauh darimu

I Finally Found Someone

I finally found someone, that knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one, that makes me feel complete
We started over coffee, we started out as friends
It's funny how from simple things, the best things begin

This time it's different, dah dah dah dah
It's all because of you, dah dah dah dah
It's better than it's ever been'
Cause we can talk it through

Oohh, my favorite line was "Can I call you sometime?"
It's all you had to say to take my breath away
This is it, oh,
I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one, to be with every night
'Cause whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begunI finally found someone, ooh, someone
I finally found someone, oooh

Did I keep you waiting, I didn't mind
I apologize, baby, that's fine
I would wait forever just to know you were mine
And I love your hair, sure it looks right?
I love what you wear, isn't it too tight?
You're exceptional, I can't wait for the rest of my life

This is it, oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one, to be with every night
'Cause whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone, ooh, someone
I finally found someone, oooh

Whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

Ingin Ku Miliki

Mungkin ku miliki
Seluruh cintamu
Kusadari semua itu
AngankuKu

ingin katakan
Hanyalah dirimu
Yang melukis
Warna mimpi hatiku*

Ingin ku miliki
Dengan sepenuh hati
Walau ku harus setengah terluka
Mengharap cintamu

Ingin ku sayangi
Tanpa terbagi lagi
Apakah mungkin
Menjalin kasih
Bila aku tak tahu

Bagaimana kau mencintai diri ku
Ku ingin katakan
Hanyalah dirimu
Yang melukis
Warna mimpi hatiku

*Sya…na…na…na…na…na…Ingin ku miliki
Sya…na…na…na…na…na…Ingin ku sayangi


..........Ruth Sahayana.......

Manusia Bodoh...

Manusia Bodoh

Artist: ADA Band

Dahulu terasa indah
Tak ingin lupakan
Bermesraan selalu jadi
Satu kenangan manis

Tiada yang salah
Hanya aku manusia bodoh
Yang biarkan semua ini permainkanku
Berulang ulang kali

Mencoba bertahan sekuat hati
Layaknya karang yang dihempas sang ombak
Jalani hidup dalam buai belaka
Serahkan cinta tulus di dalam takdir

Tapi sampai kapankah kuharus
Menanggungnya kutukan cinta ini
Bersemayam dalam kalbu
Tak ayal tingkah lakumu

Buatku putus asa
Kadang akal sehat ini
Belum cukup membendungnya
Hanya kepedihan

Yang selalu datang menertawakanku
Engkau belahan jiwa
Tega menari indah di atas tangisanku
Semua kisah pasti ada akhir

Yang harus dilalui
Begitu juga akhir kisah ini
Yakinku indah

SEPI

By Yuni Shara

Sepi hati terjadi lagi
Mungkin sampai mati aku sepi
Biar senyum hadir di hariku
namun ini hanya ada di bibir
di bibir saja

Aku ini yang bisa mengerti
walaupun yang lain mau mengerti
Namun berat beban hidupku
biarkan saja

Biar saja hanya ku yang tahu
Sejarah cinta dan hidupku
penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
Butuh kesabaran yang penuh
untuk tetap ku berdiri

Oh.. ada saatnya ku bicara
bila hatiku telah bulat
Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua
aku tetap diam

Woo.. sejarah cinta dan hidupku
penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
butuh kesabaran yang penuh
untuk tetap ku berdiri

Oh.. ada saatnya ku bicara
bila hatiku telah bulat
Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua
aku tetap diam

Hurt So Bad

I have hurt the one I love unintentionally. I feel so bad eventhough I have seek forgiveness from him. He forgave me but deep down inside his heart I could feel tht he's hurt & still hurt.....



We are not like before.. We seldom talk to each other. No more laughter between us since the incident...I feel bad really bad....I hve tried many ways to bring him back to the old person...but I don't feel the vibe...I don't feel him in me...Maybe he has taken me out from his heart??? Oh God! Please don't take him away from me....

Mengapa Kasih

Mengapa kasih
Engkau membisu
Bermuram wajah tiada
menentu

Mengapa kasih
Engkau begini
Sepuas hati ku cuba
memujuk

Mungkinkah aku mesti
berlalu
Membiar dan tak mengganggu
Mungkinkah aku mesti
mengaku
Berlaku yang tak kau restu
Mengapa kasih

Mengapa kasih
Terus begini
Ku gerak bahumu oh berkali

Mengapa kasih
Enggan mengadu
Ku perlukan senyuman
bibirmu

Being Hopeless

Hopeless....the feelings tht I hate most. I hate myself for being hopeless....feel like Im a person without my two legs..could not move here & there.

I could not help my siblings...I could not help my parents.. Im stucked! Worst is feel like Im being looked down by others....

True enough as the saying goes.."Money IS everything in this world"..despite of who ever you are...When you don't have money you are no body to anyone...It has happened to me twice....

Money can destroy world....Money is the cause of war...Good friends will turn to enemy just because of money...Siblings would kill each other just because of money....above all...Money conquers all....

Kenapa tak kawin lagi......

I was recently asked by one of my bossess..Not just tht few of my old friends whom I suddenly met on Facebook as well raised the same question to me. Emmm...I don't have the exact answer to tht question. All I can say was " Belum ada jodoh lg".....

To few of them, they can accept my answer but not to my boss. He said to me you cannot just wait and sit there till it comes to you. You have to go & look for it. I just kept quiet & did not say a word. There is nothing for me to say. No one would understand. To them I'm the type of a person who is choosy. Am I??? We are talking about a life time partner. I'm not looking for a sleeping partner who will only be there when in need. Im looking for someone who could look after me & vice versa..who could accept me as I am....*sigh*

Ya Allah aku perlukan bantuanMu..bantulah aku Ya Tuhanku...Hanya padaMu aku berserah & meminta..Tunjukkanlah aku ke jalan yg betul & Kau redhai...amin...